The day after you were born too early, we decided to drive up to Green Lake (where your grandparents live) right away because that's where we wanted to bury you. We were going to wait until November but we needed to do this special thing to honour you and give a little more closure for our grief process. Daddy is so lucky to work for a company that would give him time off for this loss.
We bought you a wooden box that I decorated with your name on top, and painted a sunshine and flowers in bright colours. I wrote the lyrics of "His Eye Is On The Sparrow" on the sides and on the inside of the lid I wrote some scripture. I did everything multi-coloured because I felt like you deserved to have all the colour in the world surrounding you.
Your Gramma Kimmy knitted you a little sleeping bag that we placed your delicate and precious body in, and a beautiful cream blanket with a heart on it, that we wrapped around you to keep you cozy and warm.
Your daddy and I wrote personal letters to you. Your brothers coloured pictures for you. All of these things went into your special little box with you. You are so loved my dear Sparrow.
It was a crisp fall day. It had even dusted some snow on the ground earlier that morning. Daddy, Maverick, Oak and I went down to the garden right in front of the lake. We had picked out a spot to place you with a perfect view of the amazing sunsets. Maverick said, "I love you Sparrow" and placed two flowers on your resting spot, one for him and one for Oak. They went inside to be with Grandma and Grandpa so your daddy and I could have some alone time with you. We said our last goodbyes as tears ran down our cheeks.
We stood with you in silence for a long time. There was just the sound of the wind and the lake swishing behind us. I played the song we named you after, as your daddy filled in your resting spot with dirt, like it was a blanket and we were tucking you into your bed beneath the ground.
I placed the bouquet of flowers that we had picked out for you, full of rich reds, yellows and oranges, right on top. Those flowers were so beautiful. I loved giving them to you.
The first night in your resting place, you had an absolutely gorgeous sunset. The sky was painted with a watercolour of purples and blues, and a little bit of cotton candy pink. Green Lake promises you many sunsets like this, my love.
Your tiny body may sleep here, but I carry you in my heart forever.
I so look forward to our reunion one day.
Until then, sweet dreams my darling.
I love you,